cell phone: alive and useful again !

cell phone: alive and useful again !: "well hello ! (: it is Friday Friday Friday ... hahah jk i dont like Rebecca Black or her 'Friday' song. haha soo i QUIT my JOB !!!!! woo ho..."

alive and useful again !

well hello ! (: it is Friday Friday Friday ... hahah jk i dont like Rebecca Black or her "Friday" song.  haha soo i QUIT my JOB !!!!! woo hooo dang that felt soo great just being able to get out of there . i was soo sick of being treated like an animal in there soo not where i needed to be ! but i might work fo NIKE soo if you want work out clothes i'll hook you up if your nice haha. i been in school for 3 weeks and its AWESOME !!! i love it and i love they ppl but i really think its the other way around they really seem to love me . for one i got asked out already hahah but i said no ! (: omgosh lately i just been getting asked out a lot but i just keep telling them no. idk maybe im just weird i guess im still waiting for the right man to come along. btw hes in town so i really hope him and i will go on a date this weekend !!!! (: soo being in school has really help me feel better about myself maybe cuz i have an A haha and i just get school i think thats my nerdy side of me hah. and quiting has really help too i dont feel stupid working at a place where everyone in there is a highschool drop-out.  soo things are really great right now. i been modeling for a few of my friends and had 2 music gigs every since i last blog. ahah and i been doing a lot of girls hair and makeup so if any ladies would like their hair and makeup done i am doing it for free cuz its just practice for now cuz im not a pro at it yet :) its only 40s and 50s i can try 2010 -2011 hair styles but honestly their ugly ahha. oh yeah my bf of 2 years and 5 mons just left on his mission and i kinda miss him just a little maybe cuz it finally happen . but he is writing to me so idk what that means . but we'll see . so lately i been having this older guy thats been trying to date me and he just doesnt get the hint i dont want to. i say "no" a few times already and always nice because i dont like being rude to ppl when it comes to love and emotions . but i just dont know what to do . sigh.... but i hope he likes someone else soon (: soo whats good with you guys ? i get a lot of love on youtube and twitter and fb and thank you i didnt know i had soo many fans ahhah i love all you guys as well!!! (: write me!

cell phone: explore my body while i explore yours

cell phone: explore my body while i explore yours: "well see these ppl well i love these guys ahha this pass friday i was able to go dancing with the one with the glasses that looks like she i..."

explore my body while i explore yours

well see these ppl well i love these guys ahha this pass friday i was able to go dancing with the one with the glasses that looks like she is resting on my head and the on the is peeking on the side of me with a cheesy smile ahah. omgosh when we get together i swear its the funniest and craziest thing you well ever see. ahha i been to hell and back with these girls . not so much that guy in the picture ahha. but yeah hes cool . soo its almost been a yr since we all started to really hangout as a little click. we have no Queen A or Queen B in our group cuz thats just dumb and just asking for drama, so yesterday they had the guts to bring up a memory that i am trying soo to block but i dont think i would ever live it down no matter how much i try to cover it up . okay so i went skinny dipping with a couple of friend last summer well the ppl yyou see in this pic but not the boy hahah that would be awkward anyways yeah skinny dipping off a roof into a pool i swear its the biggest rush you feel knowing your naked and its dark and all you can see it your two feet in front of you and no pool hahha its a scary feeling but once you jump off and are in the air for just the few second ... for a moment i felt like a bird a beautiful humming bird flying ... till i hit the POOL lol then i felt like a fish under water  best thing i ever did i tell ya. 






    but yeah after that i started doing something i shouldnt be doing and thats kissing a guy naked while being drunk ...... yeah not the best idea . i was already drunk jumping off that roof haha i swear it was crazy  and im glad imm  alive to tell this awful tale :D but i didnt know that the guy i was kissing was gonna be that ugly like im not rude when it comes to look but this boy was just plain out UGLY lol no lie omgosh i SCREAM ! at the horror of what i done . then get this it gets even better






a year late passes and this new boy i was really into asked me one day why i had him as a friend and i was like i met him at some party a yr ago and hes like really and i was like yeah and he starts laughing soo hard and asked ur the greaser chick that made out with him ?!?!?! (i wanted to die) ummmm yeah .... and  laughs again and tells me thats his bestfriend since the SIX grade and that hes been bragging about how he kiss me "sober" well i got news for you  i was Drunk and never again will i ever drink for that reason . omgosh  eff that im done with that stage of my life forever hahah yeah life i tell ya haha

zebras can smell water too.

yeah i know a lot of make up right ??? hah but it was only for a LADY GAGA make-up vid i was doing for a friend (: i promise i dont wear that much haha well its monday !!! T_T  i really hate mondays like a rino hates being bitten by flies in Africa haha <----- thats kinda funny hahaha . well here i am its 9am and i woke up at 7am hoping to feel amazing but i felt like shizzz maybe cuz i miss my family. they all freakin left me to be in Mexico right now hah well im glad they can get some time for themselves but i really wish i could say the same for myself but i cant so i guess i should stop my bitching haha so the picture you see above all this ^^^^^^^  its me on my cell phone with the one man i thought was actually gonna give me a second chance in everything . like what the hell i done everything i can do for this guy while hes away in a different STATE !!!! i write this guy hand written letters like who seriously wastes their time writing someone a nice letter and pictures to go along with them well i can tell you this moron right here does.  okay so here the thing i asked him before he left if he would write to me if i "ever" wrote him and he said "yeah why wouldnt i?" okay asshole i never got a freakin letter back while i sent out 4 already i think your lying to me about writing back hahahha oh well i always always Always !! but 100% into every relationship that i ever get myself into and what do i get in return ??? NOTHING !!!!!! absolutely NOTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  like i am soo scared to even get married sometimes for this reason cuz im really scared my husband is gonna get sick of me and dumb me for another whore and im left alone. i swear every guy is like this even the ones that deep down in your heart you believe that will never ever dream or dare of hurting you like this end up dong just that  !!! like seriously wtf what gives guys ????  what dont we have that you guys wants???? like seriously ??? i am too skinny to fat too ugly too pretty not sexy ,sexy ??? cool not cool . popular too popular for ya come on tell me what the hell do MEN want besides just sex and boobs and ass and every way a woman can every please them .. we just need to know. is it cuz we love you too much they you dont know how to treat a lady right is it cuz your scared to get your heart broken again that you decide to break ours first ????? !!!!!!! is that is ????????????? your cowards and you cant man up about how you freakin feel ?!?!?!?!? what the HELL IS IT????!!!!!!(just trying not to kill this keyboard) omgosh i just soo angry like okay yeah i get it hes coming home next month but sure as hell its not gonna change if i even bring up the fact the i like him im sure hes just be like okay ....... maybe he'll just want to kiss me cuz he didnt kiss anyone the 3 mons that he was gone and use me but eff that shizz im not giving in and getting played like that if anything i'll burn his PENIS off :DDD maybe listening to MUSE is making me all insane prolly more insane cuz i know how much he adores muse ahah and this isnt all about him either some of this is about another boy in my life but eh i doubt anything will happen there ahha make cuz i wont let it happen there . okay im going to end this one and write like two more cuz i have a lot on my mind that i need to get out :DD love ya !

cell phone: most common vaccine

cell phone: most common vaccine: "soo i never talk about the winter of 2009 because it was the most painful thing i ever went though . and like most of us we call it a breaku..."

cell phone: only cause ur cool

cell phone: only cause ur cool: " so this guy about this line well his name is Frankie. and im just a little annoyed that he hasnt made up his mind about dating me . before..."

most common vaccine

soo i never talk about the winter of 2009 because it was the most painful thing i ever went though . and like most of us we call it a breakup. but only mine was a relationship of 2yrs and 5 mons. god damnnn thats a long time . i met this wonderful boy at a church activity for the recored i was the one that made the first move ;) i invitied him to the movies with my gf and i. we little saying for eachother was "two hands under a cupholder" and i held his hand under the movie cupholder and thats how we hit it off not really knowing anything about eachother but we give it a chance idk i guess you can call it LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT ! HA never again i tell ya.  well i seriously thought i was gonna marry him and yeah i know i just turn 16 at the time haha but i really felt that way and he did as well. but life had a different plan for him and i . its okay i really felt like i needed to go though this breakup to be the GAL i am today ! and never again i told myself. when we broke up its DESTROYED me ........ you could say my world felt like it ended and stop ... i felt like he was my life and when he was gone he took my life with him or my soul and heart .... he took everything...i went into depression like really bad depression like where i didnt shower for weeks and shave my legs no make up . i really didnt eat for 2 weeks i just felt like throwing up anything that i try to eat . i felt like i was toss into a stormy ocean and there was no boat or lifesaver to save me from the ocean.. i didnt talk to anyone i lost 14.3 lbs i was just asking the lord to let me die i didnt feel like living anymore .. there was no point of even trying ot move on i just wanted him and that it. but i didnt hear from him till 4 mons later so yeah 4 mons of trying to kill myself . i try talking a lot of sleeping pills but i surive that and thank god i did cuz now look where im at im a freakin PINUP model ! WOOT WOOT and im beautiful and im okay with being single !!and whatever man wants to run my way by all means ur welcome to come right over here and talk with me hah only if u let me bite you ;) jkjk well world im happy with my life and thats all that matters i have a great life and i wouldnt have it anyother way.  sooo please anyboy that dumps me well i'll get over it fast aha if i can get over him i can get over anything and do anything i set my mind on :DDD yeah !!!!!!!!

only cause ur cool

 

so this guy about this line well his name is Frankie. and im just a little annoyed that he hasnt made up his mind about dating me . before it was the other way around but now im the one who wants him ahha like they said life isnt fair and yeah life isnt really fair ahha its soo dumb he work soo hard to be with me knowing i was still "in love" with my ex bf . but i gave him a chance cuz i knew things with my ex well we just kept messing up and it made him sad and it made me sad.... and two weak ppl cant really work out... but frankie is strong in everyway not saying that my ex wasnt hes Amazing and i love him as a friend! but frankie is seriously something else. hes like my king instead of a prince he made me feel like a Latina Queen :))  both of these guys are truely amazing and whoever gets lucky enough to married one of them well all i can said is that they are in really good hands i think the thing i love most about both of them is that they both really care about me and love me like every gal in this world should be love. and idk why im crying hahah but gosh i miss frankie and i wish he could just come back . THATS IT  i know why i love Frankie soo much its cuz hes my BESTFRIEND !!! i never felt like that with my ex . but seriously frankie and i would sit for hours and hours and just talk and talk about everything and never run out of things to say to one another. its a great feelings . my favorite memory i have of Frankie is when we went to the Temple and acted like husband and wife and how everyone thought we were the most amazing newlywedd couple ever :DD haha hell yea i would totally marry him if he ever asked me too. too but hes not here and like always i finsih in last place.... but i guess you cant win them all..... but i feel truely grateful that i was able to have two great MEN not little boys but great MEN in my life . imma end here cuz i cant stop crying hah maybe its that "the water is wide" song playing in the background haha 

finally clean !

well if you guys didnt know i am mormon but never been a great one . its just hard like i am young and i thought having fun would be the way to go but i was sooooooo WRONG ! living in SIN was so not the way i should of have been going and i am disappointed in myself ! but as of tonight i am worthy to enter the house of the lord once more ! :DDDDD its been 3 yrs since i havent been able to enter because of all the wrong choices i made in my pass. but hey im human and im not perfect and i dont expect that from anyone either !  so here i am super excited to be going to the temple for the first time in forever actually clean from sin i just know its going to be soo great !!!!  the picture about was taken by one of my ex bf lol we're cool but anyways i remember i was speaking to him on how one day i was going to make it there and here i am the day is finally here and im going !!!! woot woot !  sooo 

 yea the was the highlight of my night but my day went a little more like this .....

 i woke up and i  wrote a letter to my friend in Idaho just so he knows i havent forgotten about him . and i clean my whole house while my mom was out and about her day . i had plans but they had to wait cuz my mom was taking FOREVER AND A DAY TO COME HOME!!!! 

so i went on skype where i spoke to my sick Grandma for literally 2 hours hahah 

didnt know i could talk that long to an old lady lol but i love her but now i know where i got my singing talent ! woot from her the best 50s singer and pinup model ever ! she is a diva ! love her .

so  yes where was i ??? ah yes i skype and clean and my mom finally came home and i was able to go out with my friend Gus from highschool !! i have not seen this guy for like years !! but wow it was so great to catch up with a really good friend and best part we did a mini photoshoot ! it was awesome !!! so much fun just talking about sluts and whores and but how dumbs girls can be but im not a girl im a LADY so its okay ;)  omgosh !!!  im just too happy right now !!!  im just sitting here listening and singing the song Jar of Hearts  its a really great song haha i swear imma make a video of me singing that song ! lol  so today the world just seem a lot better  yea things are bad within my family right now but that doesnt stop me from finding happiness within myself. i just need to believe in myself and with that should be enough to move forward stronger everyday . idk its kinda sounds like im in love with myself haha but what there not to love about me ?! jk jk  but if u cant love yourself you cant love someone else and i love myself so im ready to love anybody who comes my way hahahahah . im starting school in 3 weeks woot !!! im super happy! well idk i can write all day well okay i'll write a little more i forgot  to tell u my sister and her homies had a little bake sell and they sold 400 bucks ?!! thats crazy !!! shoot i should try that sometime hha mexican these days lol  dang i just feel like that hummingbird right now just on top of the world and soring above and watching everyone from above. and if i have not thank everyone for everything they ever done for me im doing it now ! THANK YOU ! special thanks to a amazing guy that help me where i need to be and that goes to FRANKIE !!! <3  thank u for being my my ox for a little bit love u kiddo haha  . well im on FB with gus haha love that man as well hes always been there for literally everything !! thank u !! well i think thats it for tonight hhaha

cell phone

so its about midnight now and i did nothing at all today i just still in bed today just thinking about what could of been . does that ever happen to you ?? when you asked yourself about what could happen if you only made a move first or done something different ? i sure millions of people world wide has gone threw this just like i am.

    im just so over day and so over my "friends"  i can never pour out my heart out to anybody so they can kiss my little latina butt. hahaha

   i dont really have much to blog about im new at this so bear with me. so lately i been just thinking about how i let my dreams of ever becoming a classical singer go out the freakin window . like yea humble urself but seriously im gonna get out of my little shell and say this only once maybe twice hah but im Leslie and i am an amazing singer and i just wish i had the passion to really go out and spead my wings and fly and sore to the top of the sky till i can just feel for a day how it is to really feel like on top of the world. right now i feel at the bottom with nothing going for myself, i dont even have a guy texting me haha thats sad in highschool i had guys always blasting my phone with texts messages and today hah im lucky if i even get one from anybody but ugh whatever its just a stage i think and hope most ppl go threw.