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cell phone: most common vaccine: "soo i never talk about the winter of 2009 because it was the most painful thing i ever went though . and like most of us we call it a breaku..."

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cell phone: only cause ur cool: " so this guy about this line well his name is Frankie. and im just a little annoyed that he hasnt made up his mind about dating me . before..."

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soo i never talk about the winter of 2009 because it was the most painful thing i ever went though . and like most of us we call it a breakup. but only mine was a relationship of 2yrs and 5 mons. god damnnn thats a long time . i met this wonderful boy at a church activity for the recored i was the one that made the first move ;) i invitied him to the movies with my gf and i. we little saying for eachother was "two hands under a cupholder" and i held his hand under the movie cupholder and thats how we hit it off not really knowing anything about eachother but we give it a chance idk i guess you can call it LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT ! HA never again i tell ya.  well i seriously thought i was gonna marry him and yeah i know i just turn 16 at the time haha but i really felt that way and he did as well. but life had a different plan for him and i . its okay i really felt like i needed to go though this breakup to be the GAL i am today ! and never again i told myself. when we broke up its DESTROYED me ........ you could say my world felt like it ended and stop ... i felt like he was my life and when he was gone he took my life with him or my soul and heart .... he took everything...i went into depression like really bad depression like where i didnt shower for weeks and shave my legs no make up . i really didnt eat for 2 weeks i just felt like throwing up anything that i try to eat . i felt like i was toss into a stormy ocean and there was no boat or lifesaver to save me from the ocean.. i didnt talk to anyone i lost 14.3 lbs i was just asking the lord to let me die i didnt feel like living anymore .. there was no point of even trying ot move on i just wanted him and that it. but i didnt hear from him till 4 mons later so yeah 4 mons of trying to kill myself . i try talking a lot of sleeping pills but i surive that and thank god i did cuz now look where im at im a freakin PINUP model ! WOOT WOOT and im beautiful and im okay with being single !!and whatever man wants to run my way by all means ur welcome to come right over here and talk with me hah only if u let me bite you ;) jkjk well world im happy with my life and thats all that matters i have a great life and i wouldnt have it anyother way.  sooo please anyboy that dumps me well i'll get over it fast aha if i can get over him i can get over anything and do anything i set my mind on :DDD yeah !!!!!!!!

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so this guy about this line well his name is Frankie. and im just a little annoyed that he hasnt made up his mind about dating me . before it was the other way around but now im the one who wants him ahha like they said life isnt fair and yeah life isnt really fair ahha its soo dumb he work soo hard to be with me knowing i was still "in love" with my ex bf . but i gave him a chance cuz i knew things with my ex well we just kept messing up and it made him sad and it made me sad.... and two weak ppl cant really work out... but frankie is strong in everyway not saying that my ex wasnt hes Amazing and i love him as a friend! but frankie is seriously something else. hes like my king instead of a prince he made me feel like a Latina Queen :))  both of these guys are truely amazing and whoever gets lucky enough to married one of them well all i can said is that they are in really good hands i think the thing i love most about both of them is that they both really care about me and love me like every gal in this world should be love. and idk why im crying hahah but gosh i miss frankie and i wish he could just come back . THATS IT  i know why i love Frankie soo much its cuz hes my BESTFRIEND !!! i never felt like that with my ex . but seriously frankie and i would sit for hours and hours and just talk and talk about everything and never run out of things to say to one another. its a great feelings . my favorite memory i have of Frankie is when we went to the Temple and acted like husband and wife and how everyone thought we were the most amazing newlywedd couple ever :DD haha hell yea i would totally marry him if he ever asked me too. too but hes not here and like always i finsih in last place.... but i guess you cant win them all..... but i feel truely grateful that i was able to have two great MEN not little boys but great MEN in my life . imma end here cuz i cant stop crying hah maybe its that "the water is wide" song playing in the background haha 

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well if you guys didnt know i am mormon but never been a great one . its just hard like i am young and i thought having fun would be the way to go but i was sooooooo WRONG ! living in SIN was so not the way i should of have been going and i am disappointed in myself ! but as of tonight i am worthy to enter the house of the lord once more ! :DDDDD its been 3 yrs since i havent been able to enter because of all the wrong choices i made in my pass. but hey im human and im not perfect and i dont expect that from anyone either !  so here i am super excited to be going to the temple for the first time in forever actually clean from sin i just know its going to be soo great !!!!  the picture about was taken by one of my ex bf lol we're cool but anyways i remember i was speaking to him on how one day i was going to make it there and here i am the day is finally here and im going !!!! woot woot !  sooo 

 yea the was the highlight of my night but my day went a little more like this .....

 i woke up and i  wrote a letter to my friend in Idaho just so he knows i havent forgotten about him . and i clean my whole house while my mom was out and about her day . i had plans but they had to wait cuz my mom was taking FOREVER AND A DAY TO COME HOME!!!! 

so i went on skype where i spoke to my sick Grandma for literally 2 hours hahah 

didnt know i could talk that long to an old lady lol but i love her but now i know where i got my singing talent ! woot from her the best 50s singer and pinup model ever ! she is a diva ! love her .

so  yes where was i ??? ah yes i skype and clean and my mom finally came home and i was able to go out with my friend Gus from highschool !! i have not seen this guy for like years !! but wow it was so great to catch up with a really good friend and best part we did a mini photoshoot ! it was awesome !!! so much fun just talking about sluts and whores and but how dumbs girls can be but im not a girl im a LADY so its okay ;)  omgosh !!!  im just too happy right now !!!  im just sitting here listening and singing the song Jar of Hearts  its a really great song haha i swear imma make a video of me singing that song ! lol  so today the world just seem a lot better  yea things are bad within my family right now but that doesnt stop me from finding happiness within myself. i just need to believe in myself and with that should be enough to move forward stronger everyday . idk its kinda sounds like im in love with myself haha but what there not to love about me ?! jk jk  but if u cant love yourself you cant love someone else and i love myself so im ready to love anybody who comes my way hahahahah . im starting school in 3 weeks woot !!! im super happy! well idk i can write all day well okay i'll write a little more i forgot  to tell u my sister and her homies had a little bake sell and they sold 400 bucks ?!! thats crazy !!! shoot i should try that sometime hha mexican these days lol  dang i just feel like that hummingbird right now just on top of the world and soring above and watching everyone from above. and if i have not thank everyone for everything they ever done for me im doing it now ! THANK YOU ! special thanks to a amazing guy that help me where i need to be and that goes to FRANKIE !!! <3  thank u for being my my ox for a little bit love u kiddo haha  . well im on FB with gus haha love that man as well hes always been there for literally everything !! thank u !! well i think thats it for tonight hhaha

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so its about midnight now and i did nothing at all today i just still in bed today just thinking about what could of been . does that ever happen to you ?? when you asked yourself about what could happen if you only made a move first or done something different ? i sure millions of people world wide has gone threw this just like i am.

    im just so over day and so over my "friends"  i can never pour out my heart out to anybody so they can kiss my little latina butt. hahaha

   i dont really have much to blog about im new at this so bear with me. so lately i been just thinking about how i let my dreams of ever becoming a classical singer go out the freakin window . like yea humble urself but seriously im gonna get out of my little shell and say this only once maybe twice hah but im Leslie and i am an amazing singer and i just wish i had the passion to really go out and spead my wings and fly and sore to the top of the sky till i can just feel for a day how it is to really feel like on top of the world. right now i feel at the bottom with nothing going for myself, i dont even have a guy texting me haha thats sad in highschool i had guys always blasting my phone with texts messages and today hah im lucky if i even get one from anybody but ugh whatever its just a stage i think and hope most ppl go threw.