cell phone: alive and useful again !

cell phone: alive and useful again !: "well hello ! (: it is Friday Friday Friday ... hahah jk i dont like Rebecca Black or her 'Friday' song. haha soo i QUIT my JOB !!!!! woo ho..."

alive and useful again !

well hello ! (: it is Friday Friday Friday ... hahah jk i dont like Rebecca Black or her "Friday" song.  haha soo i QUIT my JOB !!!!! woo hooo dang that felt soo great just being able to get out of there . i was soo sick of being treated like an animal in there soo not where i needed to be ! but i might work fo NIKE soo if you want work out clothes i'll hook you up if your nice haha. i been in school for 3 weeks and its AWESOME !!! i love it and i love they ppl but i really think its the other way around they really seem to love me . for one i got asked out already hahah but i said no ! (: omgosh lately i just been getting asked out a lot but i just keep telling them no. idk maybe im just weird i guess im still waiting for the right man to come along. btw hes in town so i really hope him and i will go on a date this weekend !!!! (: soo being in school has really help me feel better about myself maybe cuz i have an A haha and i just get school i think thats my nerdy side of me hah. and quiting has really help too i dont feel stupid working at a place where everyone in there is a highschool drop-out.  soo things are really great right now. i been modeling for a few of my friends and had 2 music gigs every since i last blog. ahah and i been doing a lot of girls hair and makeup so if any ladies would like their hair and makeup done i am doing it for free cuz its just practice for now cuz im not a pro at it yet :) its only 40s and 50s i can try 2010 -2011 hair styles but honestly their ugly ahha. oh yeah my bf of 2 years and 5 mons just left on his mission and i kinda miss him just a little maybe cuz it finally happen . but he is writing to me so idk what that means . but we'll see . so lately i been having this older guy thats been trying to date me and he just doesnt get the hint i dont want to. i say "no" a few times already and always nice because i dont like being rude to ppl when it comes to love and emotions . but i just dont know what to do . sigh.... but i hope he likes someone else soon (: soo whats good with you guys ? i get a lot of love on youtube and twitter and fb and thank you i didnt know i had soo many fans ahhah i love all you guys as well!!! (: write me!

cell phone: explore my body while i explore yours

cell phone: explore my body while i explore yours: "well see these ppl well i love these guys ahha this pass friday i was able to go dancing with the one with the glasses that looks like she i..."

explore my body while i explore yours

well see these ppl well i love these guys ahha this pass friday i was able to go dancing with the one with the glasses that looks like she is resting on my head and the on the is peeking on the side of me with a cheesy smile ahah. omgosh when we get together i swear its the funniest and craziest thing you well ever see. ahha i been to hell and back with these girls . not so much that guy in the picture ahha. but yeah hes cool . soo its almost been a yr since we all started to really hangout as a little click. we have no Queen A or Queen B in our group cuz thats just dumb and just asking for drama, so yesterday they had the guts to bring up a memory that i am trying soo to block but i dont think i would ever live it down no matter how much i try to cover it up . okay so i went skinny dipping with a couple of friend last summer well the ppl yyou see in this pic but not the boy hahah that would be awkward anyways yeah skinny dipping off a roof into a pool i swear its the biggest rush you feel knowing your naked and its dark and all you can see it your two feet in front of you and no pool hahha its a scary feeling but once you jump off and are in the air for just the few second ... for a moment i felt like a bird a beautiful humming bird flying ... till i hit the POOL lol then i felt like a fish under water  best thing i ever did i tell ya. 






    but yeah after that i started doing something i shouldnt be doing and thats kissing a guy naked while being drunk ...... yeah not the best idea . i was already drunk jumping off that roof haha i swear it was crazy  and im glad imm  alive to tell this awful tale :D but i didnt know that the guy i was kissing was gonna be that ugly like im not rude when it comes to look but this boy was just plain out UGLY lol no lie omgosh i SCREAM ! at the horror of what i done . then get this it gets even better






a year late passes and this new boy i was really into asked me one day why i had him as a friend and i was like i met him at some party a yr ago and hes like really and i was like yeah and he starts laughing soo hard and asked ur the greaser chick that made out with him ?!?!?! (i wanted to die) ummmm yeah .... and  laughs again and tells me thats his bestfriend since the SIX grade and that hes been bragging about how he kiss me "sober" well i got news for you  i was Drunk and never again will i ever drink for that reason . omgosh  eff that im done with that stage of my life forever hahah yeah life i tell ya haha

zebras can smell water too.

yeah i know a lot of make up right ??? hah but it was only for a LADY GAGA make-up vid i was doing for a friend (: i promise i dont wear that much haha well its monday !!! T_T  i really hate mondays like a rino hates being bitten by flies in Africa haha <----- thats kinda funny hahaha . well here i am its 9am and i woke up at 7am hoping to feel amazing but i felt like shizzz maybe cuz i miss my family. they all freakin left me to be in Mexico right now hah well im glad they can get some time for themselves but i really wish i could say the same for myself but i cant so i guess i should stop my bitching haha so the picture you see above all this ^^^^^^^  its me on my cell phone with the one man i thought was actually gonna give me a second chance in everything . like what the hell i done everything i can do for this guy while hes away in a different STATE !!!! i write this guy hand written letters like who seriously wastes their time writing someone a nice letter and pictures to go along with them well i can tell you this moron right here does.  okay so here the thing i asked him before he left if he would write to me if i "ever" wrote him and he said "yeah why wouldnt i?" okay asshole i never got a freakin letter back while i sent out 4 already i think your lying to me about writing back hahahha oh well i always always Always !! but 100% into every relationship that i ever get myself into and what do i get in return ??? NOTHING !!!!!! absolutely NOTHING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  like i am soo scared to even get married sometimes for this reason cuz im really scared my husband is gonna get sick of me and dumb me for another whore and im left alone. i swear every guy is like this even the ones that deep down in your heart you believe that will never ever dream or dare of hurting you like this end up dong just that  !!! like seriously wtf what gives guys ????  what dont we have that you guys wants???? like seriously ??? i am too skinny to fat too ugly too pretty not sexy ,sexy ??? cool not cool . popular too popular for ya come on tell me what the hell do MEN want besides just sex and boobs and ass and every way a woman can every please them .. we just need to know. is it cuz we love you too much they you dont know how to treat a lady right is it cuz your scared to get your heart broken again that you decide to break ours first ????? !!!!!!! is that is ????????????? your cowards and you cant man up about how you freakin feel ?!?!?!?!? what the HELL IS IT????!!!!!!(just trying not to kill this keyboard) omgosh i just soo angry like okay yeah i get it hes coming home next month but sure as hell its not gonna change if i even bring up the fact the i like him im sure hes just be like okay ....... maybe he'll just want to kiss me cuz he didnt kiss anyone the 3 mons that he was gone and use me but eff that shizz im not giving in and getting played like that if anything i'll burn his PENIS off :DDD maybe listening to MUSE is making me all insane prolly more insane cuz i know how much he adores muse ahah and this isnt all about him either some of this is about another boy in my life but eh i doubt anything will happen there ahha make cuz i wont let it happen there . okay im going to end this one and write like two more cuz i have a lot on my mind that i need to get out :DD love ya !

cell phone: most common vaccine

cell phone: most common vaccine: "soo i never talk about the winter of 2009 because it was the most painful thing i ever went though . and like most of us we call it a breaku..."

cell phone: only cause ur cool

cell phone: only cause ur cool: " so this guy about this line well his name is Frankie. and im just a little annoyed that he hasnt made up his mind about dating me . before..."